Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Normal is over-rated.

Why can't normal people see past the shallow things like outward appearance/demeanor/stylish clothing and grooming/polished manners and see the deeper value of people as unique individuals?

Why can't normal people understand that an autistic person can't always tell whether they're teasing or criticizing?

Why do neurotypical people expect me to put on a facade to spare their social sensibilities when they won't do a damn thing to spare my sensory integration sensitivities?

Why do normal people think that their neurotypical instincts to lie, manipulate, cover eachothers asses, pretend to feel one thing when they really feel another, are inherently superior ways of relating to the autistic mode of open honesty and raw feelings?

Why can't normal people just tell the truth--just say what they mean and mean what they say?
I despise the little white lies. Why do I deserve to be despised for being unwilling to tell them and unable to detect them?

Why can't normal people believe what I say when I tell them they are not reading my autistic body language/facial expressions/vocal tones correctly?